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naiad asked:

I'm not sure what endogenic or anti-endogenic are and when I looked it up it said something about the crust of the earth? I understand if you don't want to talk about it but I'm genuinely curious and you said it had something to do with trauma and I follow a lot of people who have past trauma and I have a lot myself so I want to make sure I'm knowledgeable in things relating to it. Don't want to hurt any feelings!

lightningrod -

i want to claim that i am very bad with wording/explaining things; some things might sound off and i am willing to correct / answer any misconceptions if need be. this goes for anyone else wondering the same question in regards to my last post. i also don't want much more discourse on here about it, so any asks will probably be answered privately.

first of all of it has to do with DID; Dissociative Identity Disorder (OSDD as well; otherwise specified dissociative disorder). i'd recommend researching about that first, if you haven't - it would make this post very long; this is a very good website.

this is also a very good website.

in short, it is stated DID/OSDD forms due to repeated trauma within a persons childhood. the cut off ages are generally 6 - 9 (dsm-5), however some studies have shown up to 12 (i don't have much sources on age 12). however, the biggest difference between DID & other dissociative and/or personality disorders is the distinct separations of 'alters.' alters are individuals within a DID/OSDD system - they have their own personalities, own free will, etc. the main purpose alters split is due to repeated stress / trauma.

endogenic systems basically claim that they have a system, but without the entire trauma part; that their systems formed 'naturally,' and while sure, maybe they can .. a vast majority of people who claim they are endogenic will use our terms such as system, alter, etc. these are all medical terms and an endogenic system is sure as hell, not a medical thing. another vast majority will also spread incredibly false information. such as an alter can "system hop" to another system - usually an abuse tactic. or that alters can 'fuse' a la steven universe; this is just scientifically untrue. a lot of this has plagued tumblr unfortunately, making the tag basically a terrible place to go to. and no one can learn what is and isn't a system.

however, i do believe that they aren't all bad. i believe if endogenics stay away from our medical terms, we'd be fine. they'd have their own community, we'd have our own. but this is unfortunately not the case in most situations. as a trauma survivor i find it incredibly disgusting that such a claim can be made considering this disorder happened because of my trauma. and some just claim that they have it .. without the whole trauma part. i try to be as respectful as i can, as does the rest of the system, but the majority of endos we have come across have been very openly abelist / or manipulated us into believing something that isn't true.

first learning you have a system and being introduced to the community that uses a literal trauma based disorder for haha tumblr woke points is not fun.